Alone

My Level of Comfort and Anxiety
I made it a point in my early 20's to be comfortable by myself.

Having been in a long-distance relationship for the majority of the relationship, and then having moved across the country on my own, I figured it would be a good survival tactic.  I find that you can't rely on everyone to go out and do what you want to do all the time.

I'm perfectly okay with watching movies by myself...eating lunch or dinner by myself...riding the T by myself...I definitely prefer shopping by myself, usually because I can do whatever I want and take as much time as I need.

But when I'm going someplace with the purpose of  being social...knowing that I might only know 1 other person....I can't get myself to be comfortable with that yet...

If I didn't know anyone at all, I might hesitate.  But if it's something that really interests me, then I'll go for it.  I'd still like someone to help me feel less alone.

It's hard for me that the boyfriend isn't a social person.  I don't expect him to come out with me all the time....but...maybe I do?  But in the situation where I'll only know the host or hostess, why can't I have a steady companion?  What's the point of relationships without companionship?

"Mermaid" Around the World

With the help of many a Google search and a bunch of wonderful people, I present to you the "Mermaid" Around the World List:

Afrikaans:  meermin

Albanian:  sirenë

Arabic:  حورية البحر (bint al-bahr) - which literally translates to "daughter of the sea," also: "arouset el-bar," and "houria al-bahr"
 

CSA Adventures: "Take Another Little Pizza My Heart Now, Baby"

I've never made my own pizza before...though I've bought and eaten quite a lot of it.

With our CSA facing some opposition from some locals...oh, ya..can you believe that someone was AGAINST the farm sharing??  This older woman considered the farm share pick up as a safety hazzard and disturbance to the oh-so-darling neighborhood of Brookline.  Meanwhile, literally around the corner from where we pick up our veggies, all the college students have moved in, stirring up the vermin with all the trash they leave behind with all their moving.  But, ya....all these locals who walk/bike/scoot on down just to pick up their veggies...we're just plain old terrorists.

But, I digress.  Stillman's was lucky to have an ally with the owner of Clear Flour Bread, a fabulous bakery that borders the Allston/Brookline line.  The owner helped Stillman's fight back, AND he allowed the veggie truck and pick up to move to the back of the bakery.

Now, the boyfriend and I feel ever grateful to Clear Flour!  Last summer, they helped supply our sourdough for our kale salads.  This year, they saved our farm share.  They have some loyal customers in us now.

Toesies of the Month - September 2009

I went dark.

Super deep dark blue...Navy blue...

Designed by Nina at Dana's Nail Salon, Brighton, MA

Color:  OPI - Russian Navy

Occasion:  Stress relief before Interns Arrival

September 2009

Mercury in Retrograde + Saturn's Return = ?@&*

I'm definitely interested in astrology.  Though I don't think it's the letter of the law - just like most systems of belief - I think it can be equally entertaining and insightful.

Aries-Taurus Cusp - that's my lower back and me!

When I started this blog, I talked about Saturn's Return, which I'm definitely swimming in right now.  But every so often, Mercury goes into Retrograde...and around this time in my life, I'm trying to count the blessings where they fall and keep positive as much as I can....Not so easy when things are failing around you.

So far, the result of this combination has been interesting.