I've had this dream before, but this time around there were so many differences almost acknowledging that time has past.
The dream was basically about a massive activity weekend, featuring several physical tests and rally races. In my original dream, my team was the winner. We had to climb up a massive structure, climb back down, go back up through a different way and slide down a massive ice luge. Then we had to do a series of physical tests, like jumping jacks and push ups. Finally, we had to run up a mountain and race to the finish.
In this dream, it was clear that time had passed and our team had gained some notoriety. We had somehow built a team of 26 members, with each "persona" in a costume that started with a different letter of the alphabet.
I had a team meeting with my group, and I made it clear to them that the fact that we had grown in such numbers already made us quite a popular team. I stressed that there was no stress on us to win, but others in the team didn't seem to agree.
I woke up before the official first game.
Now, what was this dream about? How did I feel and where could I apply it to my real life?
Well, I felt very proud of my accomplishments and of the fact that people recognized us. But I conflicted with focusing on having a good time and trying to win again. It's as though my goals were conflicted.
I'd have to say that I have definitely felt that way about the paths that I'm choosing. While I am excited and hopeful about find a full time job, I'm also aware that I have my own dreams and goals that I would like to accomplish. I know that whatever position I end up at, I will use it to grow from and take the lessons I've learned to work towards my own goal. But should I just go for my own goal now?
Part of it, and part of what I felt in my dream, was fear of losing. It's almost as though I was so uncertain about winning the competition that I tried to focus on having a good time instead. But, if I have people who are willing to back me up and really go for the gold, then I should just give it my all as well...right?
I know that it makes me nervous to go for my nonprofit, because I'm scared of failing and I'm scared of how that might affect others in my team. I'm still working on my business plan, and it definitely needs some tweaking. I'm hoping to keep having inspirational dreams about it.